Fluorite Fantasia (Looking For My Father...) by Yukari Chikura

Issue 91

Fluorite is a beautiful mineral that catches the light of our star and radiates it back in the darkness of night. My stone was a memento from my father, glowing and enigmatic.

His death was too sudden. Before we realized the cancer attacked from all directions and took him. All I wanted was to sit down with him and talk about his experiences, ask him about the secrets he carried with him, but before I could gather my will to do so, he was stricken mute, then disappeared into mystery. Why did I have to wait? why did i not put all my effort into living this precious time with him?

After his death I walked with tears behind my eyes and bitterness under my heart. In the cold beautiful blue stone innumerable stars glittered and drifted.  In a dream I wandered among them, searching.

When i woke up, unexpectedly I found myself in the house where he was a child. It was full of smells and sounds and familiar but cryptic and mystical objects. His presence felt so strong that I thought his voice might come from the next room.

Though I am unsure as of why, but I believed, deep inside myself, that I could meet father there. day after day, wandering around in the mystical scenery, I looked for him.

Yukari Chikura lives and works in Saitama, Japan.
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